arrowgirl26

The music boomed loudly on the humid dance floor, everyone was bunched up together dancing to their hearts content. Rebecca,at first didn't feel comfortable dancing, she felt awkward, stiff, like she couldn't move fluidly and at ease like everyone else. Even after five drinks, she still didn't feel the alcohol kick in enough for her to dance like the others. Eric, whom like her, didn't dance, offered for them to take a few shots. Wanting to feel a sense of freedom, they both walked up to the bar and got two vodka shots. "on three" he said, she felt nervous of not being able to swallow it all down. "three" she heard, then chugged it down. she could feel the vodka make its way down her throat into her stomach, burning every inch of the way down. but she felt good at the same time, she wanted to be drunk. she wanted to be free. After a while, she still didn't feel it kick in. "screw waiting for the alcohol, I'm just going to dance and pretend i know what I'm doing" she thought and

This morning I woke up, looked outside, and thought to myself "this is a wonderful day to die" And it scared me...the thought..its scary Everyday..these suicidal thoughts creep into my daily life I found myself the next night searching ways of suicide I found myself...giving up..

and after so much pain i relize that even though your emtionaly hurting me is because ive been hurting you you ignored me because i am the cause of ur pain ur sadness ur constand depression and i shouldnt be hurting the man i love so ill leave if it means making u happy if it means that you'll be okay then ill leave im the cause of your sadness and i swore never to hurt you i swore never to make you cry ... but i did and for that i must leave im sorry because now forever is through but im only doing this for you maybe you'll be happier with someone else you'll find someone who wont hurt you who will love you and appreci