I'm Afraid to Say She Never Made it Home. (Part 2)

She didn't know why he sat next to her on the bus, or why he was even taking this bus back, but she didn't want to be near him. Don't over react, she thought. He put his arm around her shoulder, his face inches from hers, Rini didn't want to look at him, she was afraid he would kiss her again and she didn't want to. I just need to get home, she thought. He put his hand on her knee, and slowly made his way up her thigh, lifting her dress, exposing her skin. She shook her head no, and looked away "no? ok". and he slowly put her dress back the way it was, but didn't move his hand. She felt relief, knowing he wouldn't try it again.

Soon the bus was packed, and the bus started to move. Everyone on the bus were drunk out of their minds, kids in the back still drank out of their cups, some slouched in their seats, and others loudly cheering. When the bus started to move, so did he. He moved his hand up her dress, and slivered its way underneath her panties. He stared moving her fingers, but she stayed completely still, not moving an inch. She stared straight ahead into the other seat, focusing on the brown leather swirls in front of her. She thought, as long as she didn't enjoy it, she will be fine. She was dry, and it hurt every time his fingers moved in her, but she remained motionless. She wondered why he didn't listen, why couldn't he stop. But her strength to say no passed, the second he moved his body in front of her, cutting her off from everyone else. The second he put his hands on her, she went rigid, and her strength to fight back was gone.

He never let up, not for one second, his hands continuously moved inside her. He put his forehead against the right side of her face "you like this don't you?" she can feel his breath on her face, and see his eye lashes flicker as he talked "tell me you want it, say yes, tell me you want it". she was terrified, this was the first time he expected something of her. She didn't respond, she didn't want to respond. her throat felt like it was being choked every time he asked her. Over and over again "tell me you want it, I know you do". she closed her eyes, I'm not here, I'm not here. she repeated over in her head. With his free hand he moved her face closer to his, she opened her eyes and he stared dead into them, she nodded and he smiled wickedly. "I see you nodding but you need to say it with words. you want it right? say yes", again she just nodded and shut her eyes. He shoved her head into his shoulder, slamming her nose into the bone. "say yes" he repeated. "yeah" she said. Hoping it'll be enough, hoping he will stop asking, she didn't want to give him a yes, she didn't want this, she didn't want any of it. "say yes" he repeated firmly, moving his fingers more roughly inside her. "yes" she said quietly, her soul ached as the word escaped her mouth, hating herself for saying yes. She just wanted him to stop asking, she didn't want to hear his voice, or feel his hands on her.

Everything around her seemed dark, distant, like she was all alone on the bus with him. She couldn't feel the movement of the bus, or the people around her, she could barley even feel him near her. the immense desire to close her eyes consumed her every strength, and she didn't want to fight it,the sleep consuming her and him. He then grabbed her hand, and guided it towards his crotch "it wants to be inside you" he said into her ear, she lay her hand there, not moving it, not wanting to touch it. "feel your way around, unzip it" still she didn't move, it felt as if her mind and body were no longer connected, she had no control over it, she didn't want to move, nor could she even if she tried. He then removed his hands from her and unzipped his pants, exposing his erect penis.

His hands came down on her head, trying to push it towards his crotch. She felt an immense disgust staring at it, and with equal force, resisted his push on her head. "no? that's fine, maybe ill eat you out then put it in you. you want that right?" He knelt down onto the bus floor, finally aware of her surroundings, she quickly grabbed her dress and pulled it down to cover her exposed body. He tried to wedge his way through, and pried her legs open with his hands and went between it. Rini felt fear consume her and pushed his body away, closing her legs firmly. She felt strength surge through her as she did, feeling a sense of control. But it left just as  fast as it came, he moved his lips towards her, sloppily kissing her, shoving his tongue in her mouth. She hated this, her lips for only for Alex. he was gentle, he caressed her, he went slow and he loved her. This man, he was rough and fast and he had no regard for her. Once he let up, she noticed his hand back underneath her dress, but she couldn't feel it anymore, she couldn't feel his hands move inside her, all she felt was numb. Rini leaned her head back against the seat, staring out into the window. She didn't know where she was, she couldn't calculate when she would be home, when she would be free. She had never seen any of these places, she didn't know when the bus would stop..when he would stop.

It felt as if her mind had left her body, she was no longer aware of him in front of her, having his way. She felt no sensations from the physical world. she stared out, looking at the street lights, the parked cars, the road signs. Her mind felt numb, she couldn't think properly about what was going on. She stared into the black sky, noticing small freckles of stars, she wished she could be in his arms safe, or curled up in her bed away from everything. Her senses awoke once she noticed the library pass, then the swimming pool. she knew where she was, and she knew she would be free soon. "we need to go" she said softly, but she had hoped it sounded stronger. he didn't listen, he didn't respond, he just kept moving his fingers. As her senses slowly came back, she can feel his fingers moving rapidly inside her. she flinched at the sensation, she slowly sat more upright, from her previous slouched position "i need to text my sister to pick me up" she grabbed her phone out, hoping it'll make him stop. "we're here" the bus drivers voice rippled through the bus, slowly kids started getting off the bus one by one. The man in front of rini got up slowly, zipping his pants as he did.

He sat in the same position as he came in, his body pressed against her right side, his face inches from her...his hand slithered its way back into her dress. "i need to text my sister" rini repeated "so do it then" he responded, but he didn't move his fingers, in fact they moved more furiously inside of her, she tried typing "almost there, where are you" but spell almost every word wrong "cant even spell eh? am i that good" he said into her ear. She didn't move a muscle, she just stared blankly into her phone, praying her sister will respond back. The screen went black after a while "you should text her back, i want to see you squirm" he said loudly into her ear it hurt "we're almost there" she tried moving his hand from her but he stayed firm. She tried again, this time pushing on his arm. He finally removed his hands, but she can feel his eyes trained on her. She looked out the window, noticing the gas station, and the town houses, almost there, almost there. He rubbed his hands up and down her thighs "are you free? we should continue this once we get off", fear rippled through her body, she didn't want to go away with him, she didn't want to be alone in a room with him. "my sister" is all she managed to get out. "you can text her back. i know you want this. make some time and come over" he said while still running his fingers up and down her thighs. She felt herself starting to shiver at the thought of him taking her away. She shook her head, clutching onto her phone, onto the only piece of sanity and freedom she had.